...but I am not in the mood for movies and stars. My best friend for 40 years is suddenly gone; I don't know what to think, what to feel, what to say. I cannot cry, cannot talk. I am numb from incredulity.
Sooner or later it will all sink in and the reality will slap me in the face. I think I will write about her at some point; I will write something, or maybe more than one thing.
Right now I have no words. No words.
Yesterday we saw "Barbara" - a German film, and "White Elephant" - Argentine movie. I liked them both. Today I decided to see the first film we had - "Kon Tiki" - about Thor Heyerdahl: an excellent feature film about Heyerdahl's trek to Polynesia from Peru. It was entertaining and for brief moments made me forget the ugly reality of our loss. Couldn't go to a film this afternoon. Instead we had supper with our friends and talked about Sonia. Two more films tomorrow and Sunday we head back home.
I feel like I should be home doing something, helping her parents, making phone calls. Something. Anything to keep me distracted.
Words, words, just words. That's all I have. And they are not enough.